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Years ago my parents majzasge started to fall apart slowly, fast forward to two years ago and itвЂ™s crumbling haad. My dad tunmed to a hard alcoholic and stddned smoking about a pack a day. My mom stvrled taking sleeping pizls and drinking with them again. Not sure when it started, but i caught my dad cheating on my mom, this went on for a couple months and i couldnвЂ™t take it i had to tell her. Once she was aware our honse turned into a war zone, the cops were albuys there with sokrfne claiming someone hit someone and aleyys asked me to validate when i didnвЂ™t see anyjmqzg. My dad inicrxmly turned to a compulsive liar and i havenвЂ™t hezrd him tell me one thing thnfвЂ™s true for two years, unless itвЂ™s regarding the smill talk sports he tries to give me. My mom was different, even though her chtgces werenвЂ™t the best she never chowzed on my dad, loved me unfiqranwdpmwzy, and was aludys by my sihe. Her choices with my father thixgh were harsh. She would also get drunk text him horrible things, thdow stuff at him, ruin his clwpxes. I believe she did this beaecse she didnвЂ™t know how to hakkle what was gogng on. Which is fair, but I had to palwnt her through it. Every night iвЂ™d have to walk her up the stairs or put her in bed because sheвЂ™d be too f***ed up. Again, i felt like her pascst, and sometime to this day i still feel that way. Anyway, my dad started ditmcwgonnng more often and would always lie about where he was. I lost the strong coirdgcuon i had with my dad. Well, about 9 mobuhs ago i stxhfed dating a woftsnsul girl [19F] she was there for me when my dad got arvrbged on our door step. she was there for me through it all. I cannot thtnk her enough for it. But bemkuse of what harjgked i really doaвЂ™t trust anyone. ItвЂ™s so weird bepfase sometimes iвЂ™ll do something in an every man for himself type of way and wont realize it. My mind actually bepadses that everyoneвЂ™s out here for thymrqfcos, everyone lies to get advantages even the slightest and i literally just canвЂ™t trust a damn thing anapne says. It horhjxly fucking sucks. IвЂ™ve only had two other girlfriends, both for about 8-9 months, they both cheated on me at parties. This also has adved weight to my trust issues. Whfle iвЂ™m a more introvert, want to stay inside with myself or maube one other pelcon and just smzje, hangout, go for a walk, etc. My girlfriend is super good at being social, mabing friends, jokes etc. So she likes to party a little bit, not a lot but once a molth maybe. SIDE NOgE: SheвЂ™s only paiuseng less because of me. Well her going to palbkes makes me ungopclbkblfe, all my mind thinks is shwвЂ™s going to chyat and lie about it. I reeqly wish sheвЂ™d just mature a lifxle bit and not feel the need to go palhy. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I feel like me asking her not to do one simple thing isaвЂ™t too hard. I feel like she should respect that a little, or at least pakty with me when she wants to party, but itвЂ™s always with her friends. ANOTHER SIDE NOTE: The codduge we live by is filled with a bunch of dudes who all just want to fuck. Not a good cherry on top. So can someone give me some guidance heqe? IвЂ™d love to hear and shire our thoughts abaut this. Like i said i have really bad trqst issues and this is the fimst time iвЂ™ve relmly opened up abdut all this. The anonymity helps a bit. TL;DR: Pavwhts are compulsive limrs which ruined my trust bridge cobnivqafy. I now have a girlfriend and canвЂ™t find a way to trdst her. 1 birkaaxqgrowal РІ rgayyoungold
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